I should not feel this way because it's Papa's Birthday. But due to some instances, gosh I’m totally disappointed and sad for myself! I feel so stupid! So so sooo STUPID! Haiz… Hope I’ll do better next time… But how many next times do I have to wait?? Maybe after work I’ll feel better… I’ll see to it that I will enjoy Papa’s Birthday celebration. Too bad that I don’t have a cam today. How can I capture the moments!??! Aurrrgghh!