I can’t explain how I feel right now. I don’t know if I’m just becoming paranoid. Gosh… it deeply sucks! I can’t control my tears from fallin’… Hope I can cope up with this. What can I do to bring out my drive on this once again… what’s happening totally piss me off. I think my IQ has gone below average. I hate being like this. I want to be strong. I don’t want to be so emotional. I don’t want to be affected. But I am….