I thought everything will be easy as how it seemed to be. But I was wrong… I tried to keep myself busy with my work and studies… I thought this can help. Hence, I can’t concentrate on what I’m doing. It even led to backlogs and inattentiveness at school. In short…nothing happened. I hang out with my buds… strolling, play games on the arcade…Yes it did made me forget what I truly feel inside at the moment…but as soon as I got home, I can’t help but to think of what is really happening. I can’t figure it out if I will start moving on or I’ll hang up to the thought that there’s still a chance or possibility for the two of us….But when? At this very moment or when the time comes that I’m already used of not being with him? I really don’t want this to become a vicious cycle.
But then, I got this post from KERYGMA bulletin which I think would be of great help.
1. What do you do with your brokenness?
Here are the four options in responding to your weaknesses:
a. Flight: bury your brokenness in an addiction.
b. Fight: get angry and bitter.
c. fantasize: cover up and pretend you're strong.
d. Feast: accept and celebrate your brokenness.
2. 5 Steps To Celebrate Your Brokenness
Step 1: Acknowledge - I acknowledge my brokenness.
Step 2: Admit - I share my brokenness with true friends
Step 3: ask for help - I seek helpand open myself to others' help
Step 4: Affect - I bless others with my brokenness.
Step 5: Accept - I accept the brokenness of others and love them.